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October 11, 2011

我最爱的宝贝老公,Happy Anniversary!

病了,
好希望你就在身边。

还要再撑个23天,
我一定可以的。
加油加油!

你的时间,2011年10月11日。
我们在一起365天了。

还有好多好多的365天要和你一起数,
数到老。

谢谢你,老公!
老公,我爱你!
(非你不嫁,嘻嘻!)


你叫我告诉你,为什么爱你?

因为

有个傻瓜
每天早上都会叫醒我
每晚都会给我五个字
很爱很爱我
生日会叫妈妈教他煮面线汤
还会给我小惊喜
病了会叫妈妈关心我
逗我哭
逗我笑
听我发唠叨
抱着我睡觉
做恶梦有老公在
当我的白老鼠
帮我吃,吃不完的食物
每个月都要受气

谢谢你,
因为你我有两个很疼我的妈妈
还有更多疼爱我的家人

还有很多很多。

对不起,
总是弄你生气,弄你伤心。

谢谢你每次
都选择原谅我。

我最爱的宝贝老公,Happy Anniversary!
永远永远都要和你在一起,
不离不弃。






September 12, 2011

I ♥ #11

This post is dedicated to my beloved laogong, Joe Pee.

#11.

I ♥ #11.

#11 has become such a beautiful number to me since 11th Oct 2010. And, it meant a lot to me too.
It's been 2 months we are apart 5451 miles away...
It's real tough in the beginning but things are getting better, I would say.

Happy 11th Month Anniversary, baby! :)

Sorry for mistakes I have made.
Thanks for your unconditionally love, choose to forgive me, every single time. Though it hurts lots, sometime.

Thanks for waking me up every day.
Thanks for giving me "5 words" every night before bed.
Thanks for listen to me and be there when I'm in need.
Thanks for all the lil gestures you have :)
Thanks for walking your talk.
Thanks for keeping your promise to me.
Thanks for your patient, your understanding and EVERYTHING. Serious.

I know life there is tough, hang on there!
You will be seeing me in another 6 weeks time :)
I'm going to give you a big tight hug & a deep kiss, to let you know,
I will always there for you...

Love you & miss you lots here...

p/s: bi, 不管前面的路有多坎坷,我们都不要轻言说放弃 K? :)


































永远爱你的老婆 笔

September 8, 2011

I miss you terribly

i miss him... TAT

August 29, 2011

I miss HIM.

Gastric.
It's since Friday night.
Not well.
And I miss HIM terribly TAT...
(How I wish he is here right beside me, to hug me tight, to bed)

Suddenly thought of 10th July 2011.
It was the worse day I ever have in my life.

It is hard to say goodbye to your loved one ... 

It's coming 2 months.
Things are getting better for both sides.
Tears are lesser.
Arguments (cause of misunderstanding & the need of more attention) are lesser too.

I Gtalk him this afternoon, saying "promise me, no matter what, we will never leave one another"...
And he said, "ok, even if one day, I love you no more ..."

That's him ... HIM, the one I'm in love with, very very very much ...
That's him ... HIM, the one I'm going to spend my life with ...
That's him ... HIM, the one I will not betray ...

Another 9 more weekends to go, then I'm going to see him in real.
Stay strong!

July 13, 2011

11th July 2011

11th July 2011, our 9th month anniversary.
It was such a remarkable day for us.

Joe is already in New Zealand, reached there on 11th July.
And me, starting my new job in Maxis on the same day too.
While ah O, need to learn to be alone while I'm working.

If you have read my previous posts, you should be able to feel how upset I am for Joe's leaving.
Hell ya, I was crying even weeks before he left.
Crying nonstop while my way back home from airport.

Good that I'm better now but still ... hahaha :D
Guess it would be better once I started my work (hmm, attending 4 days of orientation now (: I' m having lots of fun and yay I make the right decision. Though, I still kept getting calls for ABM position, Unilever & KAO ohhhh ... ><)

I have faith with Joe, 
and I need to kick start my diet plan immediately to be ready 
for our ROM by end of next year.
WE WILL! :)

I kept reminding myself to stay tough here 
cause I have friends & family around me 
but he is all alone (luckily he got KK there).

I see this as the challenge to strengthen our relationship before we tie the knot.
Thanks God for the extra half a year to make us know each other better, grow the love before he left.

And I would like to shout it loud, 
Pee ZhenZhou, I really loveeeeeeee you :)
You're my Mr. Right!

You will never understand how much he meant to me...

Do appreciate one you love. 
You can feel it if he really love you.

Thanks baby for showing me what's love :)

Okay okay, no more PDA hahaha!

 Three of us, in airport. Argh you should be able to notice how "zhan" I was hahaha!

 Joe & his mom :) my baby always have all sort impressions.

me & his lovely mom :) 

Hehe I found this on the notebook baby gave me during my orientation.
It was done long time ago and it cheers me up!



bye people! more updates real soon :)

May 6, 2011

miss my bb already ...

this weekend, without my bb ... argh! i'm missing him already T_____T

December 22, 2010

Ho Ho Ho! Merry Merry Christmas!

This year, 2010 will be the 1st year of Christmas celebration for me & my joejoe.

bb is so lovely!~

When I called him after lunch just now, he was complaining me being too noisy and he was too busy to bother me. Then, when I was busy working on our Bali itinerary, he texted and asked me to check my email ...

*dang dang*



draw by my bb aka pi pu pi pu laogong joejoe

Merry Christmas 2010 to all!






Many many Christmas for us to come :)

December 18, 2010

relationship matters #01: you're still the one ♥

days ago, if i'm not mistaken, it was a thursday evening. 
it was raining cats and dogs when i was driving home from work.
my mood was exactly like the downpour out there, emo max!


before joejoe called me up, radio station was start playing this song, 
namely "you're still the one".
i was attracted to it, not because of the tune but its lyric of the beginning part,
"When I first saw you, I saw love. And the first time you touched me, I felt love..."


last week was a tough week.
i believe all relationship has its ups and downs.
it depending on how you two manage and go through...


i used to give up very easily...
but till you really meet someone really meant to you,
mind changed. and i think it is a good change, it should be this way.


i believe we always heard people saying,
starting a relationship is easy but...
maintaining it is really a deep knowledge you need to learn through your life.


no worries.
me & joejoe are okay now.
(thanks laogong! i promise i won't make such a big mistake anymore. it was really the biggest mistake i ever made and the consequences are BIG. i promise no more)


read bout this article, it talks bout how to have a healthy relationship.
the points really make sense, thus, i thought of sharing it...
(perhaps i can start to share bout my experience and POV when comes to love matters in my blog. 
i'm learning still and will keep learning. and it will be a space for us to share so don't be shy to share with me yours :) i have a feeling me & joejoe will have a long way, a really long way to go. thanks god for sending me him, he makes me smile in my dream *sweet*)


back to today topic! hmm, how to maintain a healthy relationship:


♥1 respect


it is crucial. everyone have their own thinking, how they value things is different simply because we are unique. when two becomes one, it is always sweet at the very beginning, your loved one will always be someone flawless to you during this honeymoon period. however, like i mentioned earlier, maintaining a good relationship is really a big knowledge! being together is all about how you live with him/her to become one. no matter how match you two are, surely will have different thoughts when come to certain stuffs, thus, it is the time "respect", this element coming in. respect your loved one might have different thoughts, understand why and work the best way out of it. don't scare of any "shaky moment" might comes, believe me, it will makes you two stronger when you two overcome it.


♥2 being together


you have to find it fun and wanted to spend time with your loved one. i'm not asking you to stick with your loved one 24-7. we all lead our own life and we have our own circle of friends but it is important, always find time, a quality one to be with your loved one. i will busy with my work and joejoe too, he spends most of his time drawing, and he need to stay focus. we prefer not to disturb each other when we are busy. agree with me or not, when you are busy, you might hurt your loved one when you are bothered by something. what i would like to share, is really ... not sure what word i can use to explain this kind of feeling (IT IS AWESOME!), when i was taking my 1 min off missing my joejoe, he will surely call and say he loves me, haha! yay i feel we are so much connected. that's a simple trick you can use :) 


find a hobby for you two. what i have in plan, i'm going to list down what we want to do together and we have a checklist then complete together. awesome, isn't it? hehe! latest to do: puzzle! anyway we are still looking for one hehe!

♥3 not holding anger


hahaha! i have my pms and joejoe has its anger. hmm sometime one have to be nice when the other one is on fire. and not to angry over one matter for more than a week. it will torturing both of you two, trust me! i experienced it, arghhh! don't like!


♥4 listening


listening is important. however, if only listening not going to work for you. listen & digest it - that's the way! maintaining a relationship is all about learning what's the difference of you two and how you work things out for these two very unique persons to be one :) challenging, isn't it?


spend time talk to your loved one everyday, knowing their days and be involved/part of their life. oh ya, some great tips! girls mumble quite a lot and they complain almost everyday. bare with them, sometime you just need to listen and they don't really need your solutions. why am i saying this is because a couple might start arguing when their guys start giving solutions while the girls don't need it. maybe. that's the nature of a guy. 


♥5 being yourself
sometime, one may lose his/her identity after he/she is attached. it is not healthy! 
a relationship is about growing together, if you are too attached to one, becareful, you might be sliding down while another part is growing. then comes the gap!


you can't make your complaint. it's all about yourself, you lead your own life! you must learn to stand at your own feet. a more independent girl always loved more by his guy :) ♥


more details bout the article please refer to
http://lifestyle.malaysia.msn.com/Relationships/article.aspx?cp-documentid=4518120&page=0




joejoe is going new zealand in months time, argh, less than 2 months :( *sob sob* i can foresee more challenges are ahead us but we can surely can do it. i tell myself, joejoe better fast fast go then he will come back faster. friends scolding me for so stupid and telling me long distance relationship is not going to work. la la la ... i don't have a crystal ball but i have faith, with my love to joejoe and his love to me, we will, this is what i trust.


it is hard for the moment but for a better one we will in future ♥ let's kar yao together!


christmas is coming! i love christmas and this is going to be the first christmas for me & joejoe. oh ya, i can't wait for my christmas in nz next year! 


merry christmas to everyone! :) 


shall i end it with the lyric of :you're still the one? i'm sure you will love it! ciao!





When I first saw you, I saw love. 
And the first time you touched me, I felt love. 
And after all this time, you're still the one I love.

Looks like we made it 
Look how far we've come my baby 
We mighta took the long way 
We knew we'd get there someday 

They said, "I bet they'll never make it" 
But just look at us holding on 
We're still together still going strong 

You're still the one 
You're still the one I run to 
The one that I belong to 
You're the one I want for life 
You're still the one 
You're still the one that I love 
The only one I dream of 
You're still the one I kiss good night 

Ain't nothin' better 
We beat the odds together 
I'm glad we didn't listen 
Look at what we would be missin' 

I'm so glad we made it 
Look how far we've come my baby 


with love, 
caroline ♥


December 13, 2010

my joejoe ♥

time flies without you realise it and it's been 2 months we been together (errr it seems longer than that). hmmm i still miss him every single moment (when i'm not occupied) *sob sob* i have prepared to cry for a least a month after joejoe went to NZ.

caroline, caroline, caroline ... yay i still can't deny the fact that, i'm still not good in maintaining a good relationship. i hurted him through my words, my action ... my temper (his temper is bad too weiiii) ARGHHHH it's so torturing when you hurted someone you really love with all your heart. okok, i'm learning still to be a good laopo ATZA! (laogong, please bare with me k *HUGSSS*)

*light buld* wahahaha clever me! i told my joejoe this morning i'm going to write down a long list of NOT-TO-DO and paste it all over the places i will be around like office, my bedroom, washroom, kitchen, baby wua .... cause i just don't know why, i tend to forget what he mentioned to me (yay, those he told me before we started ...#$%^& why should i remember wor JKJK)

in conclusion, is ain't easy! i won't give up as what i have promised =)

ciao!~

P/S: oh ya, those cuties are drawn by laogong *yay he is sweet*

November 4, 2010

dah 6 minggu

caroline monster is back, to the blogsphere!

sorry for my long absence, as always, my stupid & darn lame excuse - BUSY! *slap m...* hold on! it is true that i'm busy, i never lie ...

update: i'm no longer with Leo Burnett. it was not an easy decision to leave the agency, till now, am still missing everyone there. it's been 6 weeks me at F&N Dairies now. everything is new to me, awaiting me to explore. hiccups? sure! but i will take it as challenges for a better and stronger me =)

AND i can't wait to share this ...

...





...




i found ...





... found someone ...






... i love ...





*chiang chiang*



my laogong, joejoe


la la la la la ... thanks God for bringing him to my world. itu sebab i'm so busy lately muahahaha! and holy shit! i gained weight too ... :'( sob sob.

that's it updates of mine!

i'm doing my 1st attempt, driving back alor star tonight o! can't wait to see my daddy mommy =) yea, it is flooding in north malaysia, hope it wouldn't affect my trip :( and i wish all these ended soon *pray*

ciao~!




October 18, 2010

王力宏 kiss goodbye

Baby不要再哭泣 這一幕多麼熟悉
緊握著妳的手彼此都捨不得分離
每一次想開口 但不如保持安靜
給我一分鐘專心好好欣賞妳的美


幸福搭配悲傷 同時在我心交叉
挫折的眼淚不能測試愛的重量
付出的愛收不回 還欠妳的我不能給
別把我心也帶走去跟隨


每一次和妳分開 深深地被妳打敗
每一次放棄妳的溫柔 痛苦難以釋懷
每一次和妳分開 每一次Kiss You Goodbye
愛情的滋味此刻我終於最明白


幸福搭配悲傷 同時在我心交叉
挫折的眼淚不能測試愛的重量
付出的愛收不回 還欠妳的我不能給
我才明白愛最真實的滋味

 
thanks joejoe =) thanks for everything and i love you, laogong *muack* and i promise, no more ...

July 11, 2010

it notes the end. fullstop.

以后(现在开始)
我要学会更独立
我要小心驾车
我要记得喝很多的水
我要准时吃饭
我要习惯一个人
因为不会有你一直地唠唠叨叨了(我会想念的)

以后(现在开始)
我要读更多的书
我要存更多的钱
我要更爱我的家人
我要更爱我自己

写着写着,泪,不知觉地掉了下来(哎哟,真的好讨厌这样的自己)

我告诉我自己,我绝对不会为了你再哭第二次
不是我狠心,而是 。。。
请容许我把我的高傲筑起墙来保护我自己

不必对我说抱歉因为这不是我想听的
我不问
不是我不想知道真相
而是我懂真相往往是残酷的
而我,真的没有勇气面对
所以,我选择了沉默

老早就告诉我自己,绝对不怪你

真的,我真的没怪你

只想告诉你,

你要幸福哦!


P/S: 谢谢你!教会了我放慢脚步。也谢谢你,让我更懂什么是爱。

P/P/S: 好好照顾自己。抽少些烟。喝少些酒。还有,还有,别那么悲观。还有,还有,还有,别想那么多。


最后了,我会想念你的。


最最后了,

你会幸福的!

June 18, 2010

when (c) is in ♥

i always love the quote, "she is smart till she falls in love" ...

when (c) is in ♥
she will become a really really stupid dumbass
she will miss him every single seconds when her mind is not occupied (and she always choose to be just occupied by him, him, and him ...)
she will give him cute nickname, calling him bi instead of dear/darling cause she calls everyone she knows dear & darling

BUT

she is scare of getting hurt
she will suspect this and that...maybe is all because the past relationships she had making her so insecure. yay, "insecure" the word, that will create all kind of nonsense
she really need her bi to be more understanding, showering her with more care, love & attentions so she won't feel insecure. it is unfair but girl being girl, boy being boy, i still think bi should do it

she is scares of uncertainties as well
she is learning to take it in a different manner she can
she is not sure still, bout bi
she is taking the risk which is can't be calculated, even actuaries

she doesn't know what it will be
as for now, she just know to cross her fingers praying for something good

August 14, 2009

爱情如风筝


... 不属于你的风筝,你就要把这根线交给另一双手。有时候,放弃并不是失去,它只是给彼此爱的机会,你没有力量放飞的风筝拼了老命硬扛,不亚于自虐,尽管是被一只花俏的风筝拖着,但对娇喘不息、香汗淋漓的你,一定不是什么好风景。爱情是两个人的事,琴瑟和谐才能出佳音,还是别累着自己为好。

有些人是生来就爱自由的,于是挣断了绳子,被风带得远远的,但是,离开了绳子的风筝,很快就会摔得鼻青脸肿。相爱中要做一个惜福的人,回头草就不好吃了,因为多数山头很快就会被别人占领,到时你哭得花枝乱颤也没用,这种自由的快感不试也罢。

风筝不是放在家里的观赏品,只有放飞在空中,它才是风筝。放风筝享受的是过程,结果不是最重要的。放风筝的过程也是一个交流的过程。爱情只有不断地有新鲜空气才不会变质,你看到关在黑屋子里的玫瑰开得如火如荼的吗?风筝可以飞的很高,爱情可以飘的很远,爱上了风筝爱情的人,是不是注定要和痛苦相伴?如果爱情是牵着风筝的线,那么风筝又是什么?

天南地北的两个人,在属于他们的爱情天空里,放着他们的风筝。他为了爱情付出,她为了爱情牺牲。两个人在一起,就像是风筝遇上了风,飞的好高好高,即使饱含着相思的痛苦,那也是快乐的。他想念着她,她也思念着他,就这样,距离产生出了美。让风筝在爱情的天空里翱翔。

风筝越飞越高,线断了,属于他们的风筝会随风飘荡。他们开始对他们的爱情有所怀疑。他付出了那么多,就像是牵着风筝的线一样,让风筝可以飞的很高很高,可是如果断了呢?那风筝将会不再属于我了。他痛苦着。。。他会一直等我吗?就像这线一样,牢牢的牵着我,不会再去牵第二个风筝了吗?她犹豫着。。。于是,属于他们的风筝开始在空中打转,摇摇欲坠。。。

靠着电话,写信这样的方式过了若干年。这些年中,他奋斗着他的事业,她努力的等他,在他们的世界里有过痛苦,有过欢笑,有过猜疑,也有过泪水,但更多的是一种相互的包容和信任。他们相信着只要共同努力,他们的风筝一定可以在爱情的天空里飞下去。等到他们再次相见的那一天,他们的爱情一定比现在更加成熟。

如果当初他们任凭风筝飞,那么牵着风筝的线早已断开;如果当初他们一直相互猜疑,没有从痛苦中挣扎出来,那么风筝也许早已坠地。爱情就如同放风筝一样,时而放开,时而收紧.需要的是两个人细心的经营.他们是用对爱情的坚持和对对方的信任去放着他们的爱情风筝。风筝爱情,究竟一个人是风筝,另一个人是牵着风筝的线,还是两个人都是线,去放着属于他们自己的风筝?...

July 10, 2009

When a GIRL ...

When a GIRL is quiet,
millions of things run into her mind ...

When a GIRL is not arguing,
she is thinking deep, deeply ...

When a GIRL look at you, with eye full of questions,
she is wondering how long will you be around ...

When a GIRL answer "I am fine" after FEW SECONDS,
means she is not fine at all ...

When a GIRL stares at you,
she is wondering why you lying ...

When a GIRL says "I love you",
she means it ...

When a GIRL says "she misses you",
no one in this world will miss you much more than her ...


In short, SHE is smart until she fall in LOVE!


June 7, 2009

对不起,我爱你 (Sorry, I love you)

他,忙于工作,每天早出晚归。

她,结婚后就辞去工作,每天呆在家里。

他,拼命工作,努力赚钱,为的是两人可以有个更好的未来。

她,辞去工作,全职顾家,为的是守护两人幸福的现在。

他很爱她,她很爱他。

他很老实,她对他在外面工作很放心,绝对信任他。

她很独立,他对她照顾自己很有信心,绝对放心她。

每天夜里,当他夜归时,煲里还有温着地炖汤。

每天早上,当他起床时,桌上都有温暖的咖啡。

这样的日子,从结婚后开始,持续了三年。

她从不过问他的工作,只是知道他在越升越高,日子渐渐富裕起来。

他从不过问她的家事,只是知道家里井井有条,家庭依旧和谐幸福。

他不喜欢电脑,每天工作就对着电脑N小时了,回家决不碰电脑。

她不喜欢电脑,每天却在独处的时候对着电脑N小时,非常忙碌。

直到有一天,他接到一通电话。

"请问是陈先生吗?你的太太晕倒被送入院,她的子宫癌已经是末期了,请你来见他最后一面。"

晴天霹雳,他赶到医院,看着她悲痛欲绝的问她为什么不告诉他。

她看着他,对着他微笑,告诉他她爱他然后微笑着永远闭上眼睛。

他失去了生活中心,他失去了人生方向,他失去了他爱的她。

他后悔,他懊恼,他怨恨他自己,为什么没花多一点时间陪她,去了解她。

妻子出殡后,他独自回到空无一人的家里,厨房里不再有炖汤。

他坐在客厅里发呆,想哭却哭不出来。

这时,他看到了客厅里的电脑,他想看看照片,这些他仅剩和她美丽的回忆。

第一次开启家里的电脑,看到桌面上有个叫《老公,是我》的文件夹,里面有1095个录影片段。

电脑荧幕上出现了一张熟悉的脸孔 ...

扬声器传来熟悉的声音 ...

他的眼泪,终于决堤而出。

"老公,是我啦!从今天开始由我陪伴你过吧!不过你要答应我,一天只能看一个哦!我们终于结婚了,你知道吗?能嫁给你是我一生最大的幸福,我会把每天发生的事情记录在一段录影日记里,几年后的结婚纪念日拿给你看,一定很有趣的 ... ..."

影片接下来就是她絮絮不休的说着一些生活上的琐事和他们之间的事情,他看了看影片日期,结婚的那一天~

第一次,他违背了深爱的她的意愿,一个又一个的影片看了下去 ...

"老公,你很忙碌,要好好照顾身体哦 ... ..."

"老公,今天难得你陪我去购物,我好开心哦 ... ..."

"老公,一周年纪念日了,谢谢你的礼物,对不起还没能给你生个孩子,我们再努力吧 ... ..."

"老公,我身体很不舒服,不懂为什么常常会肚子痛,明天我自己去看医生好了 ... ..."

"老公,医生说我患上了子宫癌,建议我切除,你说他是不是傻的,我还想要孩子呐 ... ..."

"老公,我有乖乖做治疗的,药都有吃,不过我不要做化疗,剃了头就不美了,你一定会笑我的 ... ..."

"老公,医生又叫我切除子宫了,他说不然就太迟了,我痛骂了他一顿,这家伙不知好歹,总是要破坏我们的计划 ... ..."

"老公,我看我应该不怎么行了,请原谅我不告诉你,因为我想你永远记住我美好的一面,这些事情我自己来就好了 ... ..."

"老公,我们结婚都已经三年了,我想我是撑不住了,我不在后,你要好好生活,炖汤的食谱都在电脑里,咖啡的冲泡方法也在里面,一切都为你准备好了,你要好好学着照顾自己。"

"老公,如果你一天看一个录影,现在已经三年了,你应该习惯了没有我的生活吧?是时候把我收在回忆里自己走出来了,你的人生还很漫长,找个爱你和你爱的人继续生活吧。"

"老公,应该是这几天了,我知道时间到了。不过我猜想你应该不会那么老实一天看一个影片吧,看到这里你也累坏了啦,我也很累了,是时候离开了。记得,好好继续生活啊。你还记得吗?你说过你会爱我一辈子的,我也回答你我会用我的一辈子去爱你。现在我们的诺言都实现了,我要离开了,我的确用了我的一辈子去爱你。你也别难过了,你已经爱了我一辈子了,这样的我们,很幸福不是吗? ... ... 最后一次了,老公,对不起,我爱你 ... ..."

看完了1095个影片,他不知道已经过了多久,泪水流了又干,干了又流。

打开窗帘,温暖的阳光照了进来,他对着晴朗的天空,轻轻说了句:

"老婆,对不起,我爱你 ... ..."


It is a story between a wife and her husband. Her husband is always busy with work cause he thinks working hard is the way to provide a comfortable life to his wife. He always think his wife is okay with that cause she is always an understanding wife till one day ... he received a call from hospital saying that his wife had already passed away because of cancer. He is clueless and know nothing about it.

The afternoon after his wife funeral, when he all alone in the house, he founds some clips that recorded by his wife before she left. It is all about her concerns and sweet words to him. The husband is very regret after finish all the clips.


We are always thought he/she will know what we want, what the situation we are, what ... what ... All running in the mind without voice it, communication becomes less and less, misunderstanding happen more often than ever. Can you imagine how you going to avoid all these misunderstanding from happening if you two communicate less than the conversation between you and the tea lady in the office.

When you care about one, voice it! Else, he/she will never know and stop expect he/she will know. Care more about those you cared and loved before it is too late :) I know action wins everything but sometimes words work more than anything.

October 2, 2008

Sweet

Haha :D 2 posts at once.

I enjoy what I have now. I appreciate what I have too, including dar dar.

He's so cute. I know he don't like waiting for people especially is like hourssss BUT he learned to wait for me. Have to lo. My working hours are like ...

Back to two days before, Tuesday. Our Agency is off half day, who knows ... as usual la, I'm staying till 8pm+ He's like waiting for me for hours... till slept, woke up & slept again. Poor thing *huggies for him* hehehe

I should learn to trust him more. Although I know is hard for me but I'm learning bit by bit.

Saja post up this cause I really feel touched & sweet of what he had done, although is just some small little things. I felt bad too at the same time for throwing him tantrum.

Sweet sweet sweet :)

August 30, 2008

了断

为什么总是狠不下心把它花上句点?
不舍?还是何谓的眷恋?

长痛不如短痛。
真是可笑。
没有所谓的长痛又何来短痛呢?
难道这是最高超的折磨?

April 10, 2008

When a GIRL ...

When a GIRL is quiet,

Millions of things are running in her mind.


When a GIRL is not arguing,

She is thinking deeply.


When a GIRL looks at you with eyes full of question,

She is wondering how long will you be around.


When a GIRL answer “I’m fine” after a few second,

She is not at all fine.


When a GIRL stares at you,

She is wondering why you are lying.


When a GIRL say “I LOVE YOU”,

She means it.


When a GIRL say she misses you,

No one in this world can miss you more than her …




April 6, 2008

Feel like crying T_T

6th April 2008, Sunday

You might be enjoying this Sunday as any Sundays. But this is the day I wish it wouldn't be coming ... It is the day to say "Goodbye" and I really no ideas when we gonna meet. Maybe, this is the last. Two of us might going on our own path and will never meet. How?? I know I am not that cold-blooded type so I am going to miss you a lot a lot (for the first few days) then treat you very cool again, ignoring your resistant .. yea, is my way to protect myself.

I know I am selfish but I really hate this kind of situation just like how much I don't like about uncertainties. Since there is no future, what for I still want to step in?! I can't take that pain, never again, never (I keep telling myself).

Actually I am not that strong enough to deal with this sort of situation. The most useful tool I used is ignoring, let time pass and lessen my miss ... But it is not a good healing way. I have made up my mind to go Singapore and I really need to be very firm with my decision. Career is important for me and it will always be the second place after my family.

Why you are not in my consideration list? Hmm ... as we two know, this is not going to work, a lot of no-no and uncertainties so what for still ... God always have the arrangement for you. Maybe, perhaps, we can still keep as what it is.

Crying? Yea, I really feel like crying, heart feeling pain ... when woke up this morning. But my tears ... don't know why Caroline has forgotten how to cry for this type of situation.

STOP!!! Cheers up, my dear Caroline!! I am going to be fine SOOOOON!! Nothing to be sad about, treasure the memories .. live happily ...

Dar dar, thanks you so much for all these times. Thanks for your helpful advices and supports. Do take good good care of yourself there. Don't be so naughty anymore. So po going to miss so lou a lot a lot o!! You too, must miss me ya ... *huggies and kisses*

Tears are coming down ...


Should I really put it an end?! No ideas. This is the only way I should and must do T_T