Come Back to Me - Utara Hikaru

The rain falls on my windows
And the coldness runs through my soul
And the rain falls, oh the rain falls
I don't want to be alone
I wish that I could photoshop
All our bad memories
Cuz the flashbacks, oh the flashbacks
Won't leave me alone

If you come back to me
I'll be all that you need
Baby come back to me
Let me make up for what happened in the past

Baby come back to me
I'll be everything you need
Baby come back to me
Boy you're one in a million
Baby come back to me
I'll be everything you need
Baby come back to me
You're one in a million (One in a million)

Lower East Side of Manhattan
She goes shopping for new clothes
And she buys this and she buys that
Just leave her alone
I wish that he would listen to her side of the story
It isn't that bad, it isn't that bad
And she's wiser for it now

I admit I cheated
Don't know why I did it
But I do regret it
Nothing I can do or say can change the past

Baby come back to me
I'll be everything you need
Baby come back to me
Boy you're one in a million
Baby come back to me
I'll be everything you need
Baby come back to me
You're one in a million (One in a million)

Everything I ever did
Heaven knows I'm sorry babe
I was too young to see
You were always there for me
And my curiosity got the better of me
Baby take it easy on me

Anything from A to Z
Call me what you wanna babe
I open my heart to thee
You are my priority
Can't you see you've punished me
More than enough already
Baby take it easy on me

Baby come back to me
I'll be everything you need
Baby come back to me
Boy you're one in a million
Baby come back to me
I'll be everything you need
Baby come back to me
You're one in a million (One in a million)

Baby come back to me
I'll be everything you need
Baby come back to me
Boy you're one in a million
Baby come back to me
I'll be everything you need
Baby come back to me
You're one in a million (One in a million)


I love this part the most, "I wish that I could photoshop all our bad memories ...". Someone asked me a very good question whether will I allow my boyfriend to keep his ex's photos. Guess what's my answer?! SURE! Me, myself, I keep too. It's sweet memories you had with someone you loved so much and thought you gonna spend your whole life with. Things happened. BUT life still need to carry on.

This afternoon my aunt called me and talked about "him". Haha! So cuteee my aunt. Again, things happened, it hurts and time will heal it ... It ain't difficult. Maybe it's time for me to really think about what I want ... (I'm not type that love to think so much, ya I know, I running away ... from the reality, the fact ... I can't take it so what for should I know it???!!! why???)

Twilight

I don't care! I know I'm f***ing god damn late to blog about this already-no-longer-on-screen and yet decades ago movie, Twilight BUT who cares? What's matter? (wow wow, so harsh)

TRULY (fyi, big caps mean how true I meant), it is a great movie. I should have watch it earlier in cinema, again my excuse here, too busy. Hmm.. shall I put the blam to Dutch Lady? or Leo Burnett? LOL. Joking joking. It's my fault, I'm too lazy.

Let's continue to talk about Twilight. It is actually from a series of four vampire about fantasy cum romance novels. It talks about the life of Isabella, a teenager girl (17 years old?) who moves to Washington and let how her life changed drastically after she falls in love with a vampire named Edward Cullen. (wow wow, interesting right?) Moreover, I always love all these kind of fiction cum romantic stories. I'm so gang ho wanted to get all set of 4 when I'm not even finish the whole movie. Can you imagine how interesting it is??? (pm, hmm I'm not sure for guys. Thought of asking him to watch after his final BUT I think better not, later kena "shang" for asking him watching this "guys-think-rubbish-like" movie)

For those who love Twilight, good news! Twilight 2 is in the making, guess you too can't wait to see the beautiful love story between Bella and Edward. Sweet sweet sweet! Two thumbs up! And not to forget, Robert Pattinson is handsome though his name sounds like Parkinson ... shhh ... just joking. Kristen Steward always as preety as she is.

Please see below for the quick review about these four novels:

Twilight

Bella Swan moves from Phoenix, Arizona to live with her father in Forks, Washington to allow her mother to travel with her new husband, a minor league baseball player. After moving to Forks, Bella finds herself involuntarily drawn to a mysterious, handsome boy, Edward Cullen. She eventually learns that he is a member of a vampire family who drink animal blood rather than human. Edward and Bella fall in love, but James, a sadistic vampire from another coven, is drawn to drink Bella's blood. Edward and the other Cullens defend Bella. She escapes to Phoenix, Arizona, where she is tricked into confronting James, who tries to kill her. She is seriously wounded, but Edward rescues her and they return to Forks.


New Moon

Edward and his family leave Forks because he believes he is endangering Bella's life. Bella falls into a deep depression, until she develops a strong friendship with werewolf Jacob Black. Jacob and the other wolves in his tribe must protect her from Victoria, a vampire seeking to avenge her mate James' death by killing Bella. A misunderstanding occurs, and Edward believes Bella is dead. Edward decides to commit suicide in Volterra, Italy, but he is stopped by Bella and Alice, Edward's sister. They meet with the Volturi, a powerful coven of vampires, and are released on the condition that Bella be turned into a vampire in the near future. Bella and Edward are reunited, and the Cullens return to Forks.


Eclipse

The vampire Victoria (James's mate from Twilight) has created an army of "newborn" vampires to battle the Cullen family and kill Bella. Meanwhile, Bella is forced to choose between her relationship with Edward and her friendship with Jacob. Edward's vampire family and Jacob's werewolf pack join forces to successfully destroy Victoria and her vampire army. In the end, Bella chooses Edward's love over Jacob's and agrees to marry him.


Breaking Dawn

Bella and Edward are married, but their honeymoon is cut short when Bella discovers she is pregnant. Her pregnancy progresses rapidly, severely weakening her. She nearly dies giving birth to her and Edward's half-vampire-half-human daughter, Renesmee, but Edward injects Bella with his venom to save her life by turning her into a vampire. A vampire from another coven sees Renesmee and mistakes her for an "immortal child", whose existence violates vampire law, and informs the Volturi. The Cullens gather vampire witnesses who can verify that Renesmee is not an immortal child. After an intense confrontation, the Cullens and their witnesses convince the Volturi that the child poses no danger to vampires or their secret, and they are left in peace.


I'm getting all set of 4 soon ;)





Love can always be as simple as you want it to be. Appreciate, appreciate and appreciate! (I met with a writer for relationship-all-about books from US today, Jane while having my Bikram Yoga class. She inspired me.)

Lastly, weather is bad! Do take care there all my dear friends ;)

Updates:
1. Bikram Yoga is not that difficult as what I thought after the first class. Temperature matter, I would say. I guess my first class was killing is because of my place making me f***ing dizzy and dying. AND AND AND Sean, my instructor is super leng chai!! Type I like *wink wink* - strict, cool, nice body shape (I don't like 6 pats, I will feel scare Haha)
2. Come Back to me, by Utara Hikaru is niceeee!!

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对不起，我爱你 (Sorry, I love you)

他，忙于工作，每天早出晚归。

她，结婚后就辞去工作，每天呆在家里。

他，拼命工作，努力赚钱，为的是两人可以有个更好的未来。

她，辞去工作，全职顾家，为的是守护两人幸福的现在。

他很爱她，她很爱他。

他很老实，她对他在外面工作很放心，绝对信任他。

她很独立，他对她照顾自己很有信心，绝对放心她。

每天夜里，当他夜归时，煲里还有温着地炖汤。

每天早上，当他起床时，桌上都有温暖的咖啡。

这样的日子，从结婚后开始，持续了三年。

她从不过问他的工作，只是知道他在越升越高，日子渐渐富裕起来。

他从不过问她的家事，只是知道家里井井有条，家庭依旧和谐幸福。

他不喜欢电脑，每天工作就对着电脑N小时了，回家决不碰电脑。

她不喜欢电脑，每天却在独处的时候对着电脑N小时，非常忙碌。

直到有一天，他接到一通电话。

"请问是陈先生吗？你的太太晕倒被送入院，她的子宫癌已经是末期了，请你来见他最后一面。"

晴天霹雳，他赶到医院，看着她悲痛欲绝的问她为什么不告诉他。

她看着他，对着他微笑，告诉他她爱他然后微笑着永远闭上眼睛。

他失去了生活中心，他失去了人生方向，他失去了他爱的她。

他后悔，他懊恼，他怨恨他自己，为什么没花多一点时间陪她，去了解她。

妻子出殡后，他独自回到空无一人的家里，厨房里不再有炖汤。

他坐在客厅里发呆，想哭却哭不出来。

这时，他看到了客厅里的电脑，他想看看照片，这些他仅剩和她美丽的回忆。

第一次开启家里的电脑，看到桌面上有个叫《老公，是我》的文件夹，里面有1095个录影片段。

电脑荧幕上出现了一张熟悉的脸孔 ...

扬声器传来熟悉的声音 ...

他的眼泪，终于决堤而出。

"老公，是我啦!从今天开始由我陪伴你过吧!不过你要答应我，一天只能看一个哦!我们终于结婚了，你知道吗？能嫁给你是我一生最大的幸福，我会把每天发生的事情记录在一段录影日记里，几年后的结婚纪念日拿给你看，一定很有趣的 ... ..."

影片接下来就是她絮絮不休的说着一些生活上的琐事和他们之间的事情，他看了看影片日期，结婚的那一天~

第一次，他违背了深爱的她的意愿，一个又一个的影片看了下去 ...

"老公，你很忙碌，要好好照顾身体哦 ... ..."

"老公，今天难得你陪我去购物，我好开心哦 ... ..."

"老公，一周年纪念日了，谢谢你的礼物，对不起还没能给你生个孩子，我们再努力吧 ... ..."

"老公，我身体很不舒服，不懂为什么常常会肚子痛，明天我自己去看医生好了 ... ..."

"老公，医生说我患上了子宫癌，建议我切除，你说他是不是傻的，我还想要孩子呐 ... ..."

"老公，我有乖乖做治疗的，药都有吃，不过我不要做化疗，剃了头就不美了，你一定会笑我的 ... ..."

"老公，医生又叫我切除子宫了，他说不然就太迟了，我痛骂了他一顿，这家伙不知好歹，总是要破坏我们的计划 ... ..."

"老公，我看我应该不怎么行了，请原谅我不告诉你，因为我想你永远记住我美好的一面，这些事情我自己来就好了 ... ..."

"老公，我们结婚都已经三年了，我想我是撑不住了，我不在后，你要好好生活，炖汤的食谱都在电脑里，咖啡的冲泡方法也在里面，一切都为你准备好了，你要好好学着照顾自己。"

"老公，如果你一天看一个录影，现在已经三年了，你应该习惯了没有我的生活吧？是时候把我收在回忆里自己走出来了，你的人生还很漫长，找个爱你和你爱的人继续生活吧。"

"老公，应该是这几天了，我知道时间到了。不过我猜想你应该不会那么老实一天看一个影片吧，看到这里你也累坏了啦，我也很累了，是时候离开了。记得，好好继续生活啊。你还记得吗？你说过你会爱我一辈子的，我也回答你我会用我的一辈子去爱你。现在我们的诺言都实现了，我要离开了，我的确用了我的一辈子去爱你。你也别难过了，你已经爱了我一辈子了，这样的我们，很幸福不是吗？ ... ... 最后一次了，老公，对不起，我爱你 ... ..."

看完了1095个影片，他不知道已经过了多久，泪水流了又干，干了又流。

打开窗帘，温暖的阳光照了进来，他对着晴朗的天空，轻轻说了句:

"老婆，对不起，我爱你 ... ..."


It is a story between a wife and her husband. Her husband is always busy with work cause he thinks working hard is the way to provide a comfortable life to his wife. He always think his wife is okay with that cause she is always an understanding wife till one day ... he received a call from hospital saying that his wife had already passed away because of cancer. He is clueless and know nothing about it.

The afternoon after his wife funeral, when he all alone in the house, he founds some clips that recorded by his wife before she left. It is all about her concerns and sweet words to him. The husband is very regret after finish all the clips.


We are always thought he/she will know what we want, what the situation we are, what ... what ... All running in the mind without voice it, communication becomes less and less, misunderstanding happen more often than ever. Can you imagine how you going to avoid all these misunderstanding from happening if you two communicate less than the conversation between you and the tea lady in the office.

When you care about one, voice it! Else, he/she will never know and stop expect he/she will know. Care more about those you cared and loved before it is too late :) I know action wins everything but sometimes words work more than anything.

that.time.of.the.month.AGAIN

E-M-O. And I need chocolates to keep my endorphin level high enough to beat my stress level.

I couldn't sleep well last night (really thanks to the somebody). Kept wake up through out the night. I really clueless about all these and stuck in no where. And I start thinking about what I really want. I was okay when I was consulting san san but KO after that.

I think I should blame it to "that-time-of-the-month" which making me E-M-O E-M-O.

People who know me well, they surely know how much I hate about uncertainties but the fact is that when you are getting older and older (Yay, I'm old d, 24 in counting), you will understand things will never go the way you wish all the time. I always remember the conversation between me & Michael years back:

Michael: Who do you think you are? Why you think you will get all you want?
Caroline: Because I'm CAROLINE! *SOL*

Haha! Now, I will definitely won't say it anymore. Time passed and Caroline grew. I start to understand, it is not all the time you will get what you want and way you want it to be. Just relax and stay chill. Life is short.

Correct! Life is short. I had nightmare last night. I dreamed of my cousin who passed away months ago. This incident still giving a deep pain to my family. Life is always unfair. What to do? (Hehe me and Matthew always say that) Live your life happily as possible. That's why I always try my best to get what I want, if I still can't get it, I won't regret cause I had already put in my best efforts ;)

I'm reading a novel name, Eat. Pray. Love., by Elizabeth Gilbert. She is very success in her career, relationship and everything BUT deep in her heart, she knows she wants something else. And here she started her journey of pursuing what she really want deep inside her heart. (So like me, I know you gonna say shame shame, don't care!)





I am clear what I want though I always giving people an illusion that I am god damn blur. Hehe! I enjoy it! As long as I know what I want and what am I doing, who care! I told san san, when you are sad and feel uncertain, start thinking about your dreams, it will give you the strength to carry on your life no matter how big the obstacle is front of you.

Cheers, Carol!ne. Enjoy you E-M-O! Mama said learn to appreciate every little single thing is the way to live happy all the times.

OMG!!

OMG!!

I just realized it's been half a year I never update my blog.

Reason WHY? Busy ma ... (Shit la! Lame Excuse!)

It's one year plus one week me with LB now, I'm kinda on track so busy is not really an acceptable excuse if you happen to know my schedule. Muahaha. Actually, it is because my baby laptop KO jo and thanks to the crap broadband service provided by Time. SERIOUS!

No worries, we are planning to change our service provider to P1 Wimax. I heard the services kinda okay comparing to other broadband service providers. And is on my list to buy too, to get a new laptop, Compaq Presario CQ20-318TU. (Itu TYP lost the bet but said I "wat" him. Haih I am too good, nevermind I buy myself, hmm!) Its retail price at RM2399, kinda affordable BUT Carol!ne with no reason, she is always at either "damn poor" or "damn broke" situation. No worries. I'm getting it one day. That one day will come. (BUT I need a camera too, semi-pro will do, who want to sponsor? hehehe)

Haha! I went to Bali last end of April and spent like RM1000 without realizing *shy*. Check out my pictures at my Facebook :) It's a great trip. Tell you tell you! I ate ice-cream everyday there. There's a restaurant named FlapJack, OMG!! the ice-cream, waffle and pasta served there are superb yummy!!! I SWEAR!! I ate till I get to know the shop manager and was asking about the franchising. He gave me his name card but I lost it. Sad.

Another reason why I am so broke now is that, I just bought my flight ticket to Taiwan this September. OMG!! I'm god damn exciting about this trip. I will be going there with San San, our late coming graduation trip.

My mission in Taiwan:
1a. Shop crazily
1b. Shop till drop
1c. Shop, and shop, and shopppp

2a. Eat
2b. EAT
2c. EAT, and EAT, and EATTTT

OMG!! *SOL* (SOL stands for Shout Out Loud)

OMG!! I think will be what you gonna SOL while reading this post I guess. Hahaha! Do enjoy the 1st post of return after half a year!

Good day!! *muack muack*