yeah july is ending!

yeah, july is ending *cant wait*

july is ain't good month for me. serious. lotsa things happened, and feeling glad that am not so bad luck.

hmm caryn asked me a good question today, "so are you excited bout the new change?"

i didn't answer her. just don't know how to answer her.

today my 1st meeting with my new client (and tomorrow am having my last wip meeting, is been 2 years working on the account). i can surely give an answer to caryn now, yes! am excited bout it. i think i back to me (the two years ago me).

i had a long talk with my boss earlier, telling her i need a new environment and i think i'm just not suitable for the job. hehe, she always know what is bordering me. am glad for all the chances she gave.

guess things happened this while, make me losing my focus, am too emotional attached. i learned one lesson, never ever get too emotional attached, this round proved how worse case you will be if you did it. fallback plans are important!

guess, things getting better. and guess what, my new client inspired me how to get going. she is such a nice person that you won't even want to get mad on her (told by mel). think, if you continue to be a good nice person, eventually people will see it.

ready for my new challenges? yes, of course! am making sure my fallback plans are really great enough to support me in the future same things happened, now building it hehee!

my wish list ♥

i know, i know, i know. today is monday, is ain't a day for such a "lovely" topic. i should be busy around and stressed up with my works. hmm. not so agree. i think the wish list will cheer me up and work harder for the week, motivation to get what you want, the ooom, don't ya all agree? hehe

okay, as you all know, i love to pray. i will pray for anything i want, and i do pray for friends. till the extend, people will start asking me, "hmm caroline, is your prayer works?". it depends, by luck, but prayers make me feel ... hmmm how to explain huh ... am just getting use to pray, since i was really really young.

what's my wish list?

#1 camera - Olympus EP2
#2 mini schnauzer (i know caryn, pat and who ever read this gonna tell me, NO WAY YOU GONNA OWN ONE. but ... hmm ... i kept dreaming of myself getting one)
#3 house (you serious??? yes i am. i thought of getting house even before i get my car. hopefully am getting it by end of next year, i know it is hard but, don't under estimate me k)

haha. yay only 3, for now (for the moment, in my mind). see, am not greedy at all. see, all incur $$$$$ so i need to work harder, and smarter as well. hahaha!

okay, i got the ooooom to work harder now. ciao~

P/S: guys, let me know if any part time job, serious, i need one haha!

CIAO~!













 

5 ways to mature adulthood

i ♥ doodling. i doodle when i'm upset, i saw some nice quotes, wanted to get motivated ... found this in the doodling pad i have last week thought it would be quite meaningful to share with you guys - 5 ways to mature adulthood.


#01 avoid blaming past

things happened. there's no point to stand still there feeling regret and upset about the mistakes already done. why not, look for another alternative way and go ahead. life is full with choices and different choices you take, lead you to different you, you will be. am learning not to spend too much time, act like a sober in some mistakes i made. i love to express my feeling but not always your closed one available for you all the time and sometime i just don't wanna burden them with my -ve thought i might have, doodling helps me move on :)




#02 remember you can't be liked at all of the time

hehe :D am learning hard for this. i perceive strongly how people think & feel about me most of the time. i will get emo and upset if i feel doesn't go as what i wish which i seriously need to not to be. emo will only make my life difficult. learned from current issue faced, guess am too emotional attached to one thing and when thing doesn't go the way i want to be, i become emo and i can't stay focus. no way, if am my way to mature adulthood. thanks boss for all the supports, never feel disappointed by me and all the chances given *appreciate*




#03 don't expect to get everything right


i hate uncertainties. yes i am. you will never know how much i hate bout uncertainties, i can get really really upset and become cave-woman hiding in my own little world when thing doesn't get the way i want. now, am better. try to think positive, i know i went through a lot of heart breaking, backstabbed, mistrust bla bla bla you name it, but without all these, my life will be just a plain white paper, correct??! i believe God always have something better for you so don't get too upset when things happened




#04 try not to feel responsible for other people all the time

hmm what i would say? never think you are a savior all the time cause you will never be :)




#05 push yourself


whether you believe it or not, i will never compete with anyone but myself. if you are friends of mine, you will know how i am. hmm i know i need to slow down my speed but i just can't. i always push myself to be a better person, maybe you will feel tired for me but this is how i lead my life. no worries, am enjoying, i have targets for myself, once i make it, is a great accomplishment for me, and that kind of satisfaction is unexplainable. try it and you will know


hope you guys enjoy some simple thoughts i have bout life ♥


p/s: jess darling is back! it's 6pm now, can't wait for tonight girls out! 


happy weekend to all of you ya!!~

shontelle - impossible ♥

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did, I did
And you were strong and I was not
My illusion, my mistake
I was careless, I forgot
I did
And now when all is done
There is nothing to say
You have gone and so effortlessly
You have won
You can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof top
Write it on the sky love
All we had is gone now
Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

Falling out of love is hard
Falling for betrayal is worst
Broken trust and broken hearts
I know, I know
Thinking all you need is there
Building faith on love is worst
Empty promises will wear
I know (i know)
And know when all is gone
There is nothing to say
And if you're done with embarrassing me
On your own you can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof top
Write it on the sky love
All we had is gone now
Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

Ooh impossible (yeah yeah)

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof top
Write it on the sky love
All we had is gone now
Tell them I was happy (i was happy)
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did

it notes the end. fullstop.

以后（现在开始）
我要学会更独立
我要小心驾车
我要记得喝很多的水
我要准时吃饭
我要习惯一个人
因为不会有你一直地唠唠叨叨了（我会想念的）

以后（现在开始）
我要读更多的书
我要存更多的钱
我要更爱我的家人
我要更爱我自己

写着写着，泪，不知觉地掉了下来（哎哟，真的好讨厌这样的自己）

我告诉我自己，我绝对不会为了你再哭第二次
不是我狠心，而是 。。。
请容许我把我的高傲筑起墙来保护我自己

不必对我说抱歉因为这不是我想听的
我不问
不是我不想知道真相
而是我懂真相往往是残酷的
而我，真的没有勇气面对
所以，我选择了沉默

老早就告诉我自己，绝对不怪你

真的，我真的没怪你

只想告诉你，

你要幸福哦！


P/S: 谢谢你！教会了我放慢脚步。也谢谢你，让我更懂什么是爱。

P/P/S: 好好照顾自己。抽少些烟。喝少些酒。还有，还有，别那么悲观。还有，还有，还有，别想那么多。


最后了，我会想念你的。


最最后了，

你会幸福的！

A short break ♥

Another 8 more hours to go :'(
Ehm. No tears dropping, carol!ne but let's get excited & start counting the days towards the next short break in this coming Sept (2 more months to go) *hehee*

After I got my baby wua, I tell myself there's no travelling for this year and start all over again saving my money. Kinda stress. Now I'm worry bout every single cents I spent and getting stressed up especially beginning of the month whether the sum of money I earn can cover my expenses or not. Mio told me, it is normal for the couples of month to be worrying about but slowly will be fine. Maybe what she said is true, for me, a commitment freak, I might just need extra times comparing others. Anyway, am proud of myself for taking the step to commit to my baby wua.

This 6-day off is my planned leave in the beginning of the year. No travelling abroad but back home lazying & get myself showered with love by my lovely daddy mommy grandpa grandmas uncles aunties bros & cousins. I didn't do much, spent most of my time lazying around, YES IT'S TRUE if you know me well enough you will know what I will do (ZZZzzz sleep sleep sleep?? BINGO!).

Not too bad, after all. My accomplishments in these 6days:
#1 Give my bb princessdiary88.blogspot.com a brand new look - even more retro kinda girlish look *love it to the max*
#2 Read 3 books - 2 & half actually *hehee* not bad!
#3 Watched DVDs (and bought extra 3 sets - to be used to kill my time back to KL)
#4 Ate a lot a lot
#5 Slept a lot a lot
#6 Doodle a lot a lot

what else?...

#7 WORLD CUP yahooooo! German Go Go Go!!! Anyway, I missed 2 midnight matches hahaa can't wake up thought I set alarm and my dad trying to wake me up kekekee!

Though there's some @#$%^ tensed me up during my break, so far, it is a great one, especially back to home and enjoy being daddy mommy girl *lovely*

Alright, back to KL, gonna work hard in my work and DIET *see pic shown below then you will know why* (there's lots but ... after loooong consideration, better not showing all hahaha! scare you guys jealous-lah).

Here for this post entry.

P/S: let's pray for German!!!! German Go Go Go!!!!!

Popo homemade Ba Zhang *two thumbs up*

Mom's fried fan tuan *my fav*

   

Yum yum mom cooked Lum Mee

   

Doodle time <3

   

Our cutie pie at home - QingQing (Notty! She was sitting in her old baby chair)