Going to miss all these ...

20th March 2008, Thursday, another 30 minutes left ...

I finished my chapter 5 already!! Yahoooo!!!!

I am counting on the days left ... hmm ... going to graduate sooooon la. Not yet die. Last time, when you ask me, I will definitely give you an expression of "WOW, THAT'S GREAT! I'M LEAVING!" but not now. I know I am going to miss my university life just like how I miss my secondary life years before. I am getting bigger and mature, apart be a big deal anymore. Caroline, Caroline, treasure all your university's memories *wink wink*

I can still remember what I did during my 1st semester. Hmm, I skipped the Orientation Week, stayed in the hostel, slept all I can ... went down for meals when time came ... all those kakak and abang been cheated by me, keke! They sent me to PK (Pusat Kesihatan), made me take the cough medicine and finally sleeping soundly in DSI (UTM's hall) HAHAHAHA!!! Everyone knew that I cabut balik KL during the 1st weekend in UTM. I am well-known as "Skipping Queen". I placed my bag outside the class, "cabut balik tidur" after signed the attendance. I watched series whole night, having big big panda eyes ... ...

A lot of people said Caroline very lan xi ... ego ... ... whatever, let it be ... I am kinda happy-go-lucky! I have problems with coursemates as we all are different thinking, having a very hard time in the beginning of my uni life. Anyway, I went through all these dy ... It makes me grow stronger and mature. I did do mistakes, I admit and learn.

When I was in work, I will be kinda serious person, I am firm and will debate for my ideas and points. Sometimes I hurt people around me with words without realizing ... I am bad!! (as I told everybody since the beginning) When I have problems, I keep telling myself, cheers up darling, go through all these, you going to be stronger!! This is how I going through these 3 years. HAHAHA! Said until I am so chammm. Keke!!

Okay! Let me end this post by sharing some : : : Funny funny pictures : : : I took during my class recently.

this picture was took during multimedia marketing lab. San san is using photoshop to sketch out herself actually, but too shy to admit so put my name there *isk*

this le .. took during ethic class. En Azlan (not sure I spelled it correct or not) was talking his grandmother stories, nothing to do so ... nice drawing??! simply draw it only o ;P

Moody ..

Am I feeling moody today?! Hmmm .. The title was wrote yesterday before Brand Management class, thought of posting one yesterday, who know ... "Caroline, you feeling moody today?? Oh, princess diary ..." my Brand Management lecture, Sharifuddin was stepping in the class and asking me. Hehe, I was using the classroom's PC, then what was over the computer screen was projected out so ... ...

I WAS feeling moody days before, maybe aunty visit soon ... tension with PSM ... working phobia, perhaps. My last paper will be on 23rd April, planning to start working on month of May, meaning that I have about one month plus to go. I am not yet prepared, don't feel like working >.<

Symposium is coming soon. Some of my coursemates had already finish their 5 chapters, how's about my progress anyway??? Not bad I think, finished my chapter 4 yesterday "officially", chapter 5 and the summary will be finished by Friday, as planned. Not bad right?! Hehe! Stop, Caroline! I still need Sharifuddin to revise and revise and revise, and usually it takes timesssss and most probably I will get all done exactly day before the due date, hahaha! What to do. I am aiming for the Best Presentor for this coming symposium (final year project's presentation). Hopefully I manage to get it :) Ganbarimasu!!

My mom called me yesterday night. She asked me whether I got job offer already or not. Cousin brother asked about it few hours before on msn ... Guess what answer I gave my mom. "I still want to study." Frankly saying, I know what I want but scare of not getting what I want so I start to runaway from the problem. Working phobia, I guess this is the best verse to describe my feeling now. I still want to study, actually is I don't feel like working. Kinda scare of the uncertainty, really don't know what's my future will be, very scare of making the wrong decision ... A lot of people are start sending their resume for job application. Me? I had finalize my resume and cover letter but still not yet sending out. I am not ready. Working, is not what I want to do.

I woke up this morning with "heart jumping" [feeling anxious ..] as I know I am one day nearer to the uncertainty. I threw tantrum to friends around me lately, don't feel like talking to anybody, feeling disgusting with everything that did by people around me ... ... guess these are what people around me thinking la. Haiz, been working together with you guys almost three years but the way you all doing things still not change, told you guys again and again but the mistake is repeated again and again, that's why I am running mad with. I guess I do have fault as I don't like to explain again and again. Whatever~ Let it be~ Is three years the longest period for a relationship to stand, perhaps, who know. People are coming and leaving. Two people are like line, when these two lines meet, well, they get well together. But don't forget after the line cross, it will separate in two different directions.

Graduate vacation? How was the progress?? Hehehe! [Dry laugh >.<] It was officially canceled this afternoon. Sad? Not actually, as I didn't expect a lot on it. When you get rejected again and again, you will learn not to put so much of expectation and you won't feel hurt once you can't get what you want. Frustration? Yup, sure, a bit. I did all the research, change the destination due to the budget problem .. who know at the end, this is what I get.

Sometimes I do think that we need to learn to be selfish "a bit", to stress of it again, is a bit. I know it is hard for me but I need to learn just to protect myself of getting hurt, hehe! Jot it down! Survival tip! HAHAHA! Not to say selfish, is paying more attention on yourself, love yourself more. If not, people will keep taking advantage on you, and the result is, you will getting hurt again and again. I believe our heart is fragile, it can't take all these, so take good care of your heart! HAHAHA! [Bullshit!] Anyway, is true, cardio problem very severe so everyone have to be extremely careful. [What The ...]

Aiya, stop stop stop, stop thinking and writing all these [hmm, is my blog, I can write whatever I want, you syiok or I syiok? haha! "chuen o!"]


Guess where I went this afternoon?????? [no present anyway if you are doing a right guess, bluek =p]






scroll down to find the answer ...






Condom Factory

Hehe! AIESEC is running its AIDS/HIV campaign, condom factory visitation is one of the activity for this campaign. It was a different exposure for me. Quite fun. If anyone from UTM want to find out more about this, can join for the last trip on next Wednesday. Just leave me a msg or go to FAB bus stop on Wednesday by 1.30pm. You will see a lot of AIESEC-kers there! :)

If ...

This afternoon, during Business Strategy class, this suddenly came to my mind: "what if I blind ..." These few nights, although I was very tired but no matter how hard I tried to sleep also can't, I just rolled over and over my bed ... Then I feel pain on my eyes, may be my eyes are too tired and not having enough of rest. I told blue-ie and goffy that I feel like there is fire on my eyes, hahaha! Why? I always sending the wave to guys until my eyes are too hot .. WTH Caroline is bluffing here, keke!

What if I blind ... Then I can't finish my assignments and THESIS then cannot graduate. So now is not the right time for me to get blind. And it is so scary if you are blind. Your worth world is dark and you are not sure about what and who is surround you, I am going to be panic as I don't like uncertainty.

For those who are blind but still manage to have a great achievement in their life, we can imagine how strong and determine they are. Actually we should take those disability as our role model. They are not scare but face it. Sometimes when we are facing difficulties, we will just run away from the problem, complain this and that but never think what is the reason that make us fall. Addition, we should more appreciate what we are having.

Maybe May is coming soon, need to get a job, settle down ... a lot of worries ... whether which industry I should pursuit, which company should I pick, what's my career path, what can I do to continually upgrade myself ... Oh gosh, thesis le!! Haizzz ... It is life, it is the crossroad again that everyone will face in their life time. Perhaps what can I do know is do my best part, analyze every alternative to pick the best one. And I am sure Caroline can make it!!!

Update

1-week past and what's the result for my 1-week slimming project???!! Hehehe, very sad to say that it is not a fully success, anyway, I am great with the result. I managed to maintain at 50 kg although I had a lot of "unnecessary input" this week.

Cheers up, Caroline! And I am going to my next round! Yo yo! Don't know why I am preety enjoy keeping fit, is a nice task. Hehe, sot sot jo :D This time, I am sure I can! Why am I so confident about it? As this week on, everyone is in critical period till the last day of final exam. Agree?? Everyone is rushing for the assignments, projects, lab works, reports, AND thesis!!! The schedule is so packed until you won't realize the time pass. Until the end of day, you will suddenly realize that you have already shed down some weights.

I had bought some dry ingredient to cook tong sui, banana and EGGS. Hehe! I love to eat egg and I finished 10 eggs in 1 week time, which I think is normal but my friends not agree. [Tips: It is good to consume more proteins during your diet. Why? When you are eating protein, actually you are burning the fat while eating and it will help you to tone up your muscle :) so guys, eat more eggs but not more than 3 per day]


to be continued ...

Funny Joke :D

I think this is superb funny so I share it with you guys.

This inccident was happened days ago between blue-ie and goffy:

Bluefish : wana eat McD later?

Goffy: U wan call delivery?
Bluefish: ya, u wan?yesterday u wan eat ma..
Goffy: Hmm...today don't eat McD...
Bluefish: WHY? today McD not fresh?

See what goffy did. Goffy, is don't want eat NOT don't eat. She is always in blurry mood :)

Final Semester

Lecture: "You guys have less than 5 weeks time to meet me ... ... "

5 weeks??!!! Gosh! Time is flying so fast ... *worry*

Goffy told me this morning, got 2 chinese girl coursemates already finish their Thesis - Chapter, meaning that they already finsih their whole thesis. Mine?? I just finished entering 113 sets questionnaire's result into SPSS. Actually I am kind of happy yesterday night as I still got another 37 sets to go (my friends still haven;t send it back to me) ONLY, then next week, once I get all collected, can start working on my analysis. NOW ... kind of worry, not kind of, is very very worry.

We still have less than 9 weeks to go (including study week and final exam). What's my next step? Where should I go? What should I do? ... I am sure everyone are now busy with assignments, projects, thesis, preparing resume, going to career fairs (be it organized by university, public, even got people going singapore's) ... ... BUSY BUSY BUSY

Since everybody claimed that they are so busy, did you all guys really know what you all are busy with? What kind of life (after graduate) you want actually?

If you ask me, I will tell you frankly that I still want to play. I wish I have 1 to 2 years time to travel around the world, do whatever I love, learn whatever I am interest with, live the life that I dream of ... BUT reality is very crucial and we need to face the fact. What is the fact then?
The fact is "NO MONEY, NO TALK". Friends, don't you agree with me, we all are living in a materialistic world. The truth is always heart-breaking and cruel. We all (when still schooling) will keep dreaming of what I want, what I will be, when I am getting rich ... and etc. For me, I guess after graduate, as others will do, working! Before got plan to further my Master straight after graduate but think think think .. is better to earn the tuiion fees myself if I really want to continue. Used my parents' money for so many year already, I still got another 2 younger brothers, parents always give the best to me, feel like very unfair to my brothers though they never complain about it. I should be more understanding, no more a teenager, should learn to take the responsibility myself.

to be continued ...

1-Week Slim Down Project (4)

05 March 2008 (Wednesday)

Sleep very soundly last night. Don't know why every Tuesday night, I will be very tiring and have a very good night sleep until I don't feel like wake up on the next morning. [see, reason again, piggy Caroline!]

I am going to late for the class! RUSHHHH!! Oh, my weight on this beautiful morning - 50kg! Yea!!! *happy happy* another 2 more kg to go. I just ate one pack of biscuits as my today breakfast.

Yum yum! I had neslo + scrambled egg + toasted tuna sandwiches for my lunch. It is so full and yummy!!! It makes me feel that how beautiful my life is. [Caroline sot jo arr!]

Life's always as beautiful as what you want, just you need to learn to appreciate what you are having. Be cheerful! That's so simple till not much of people really make it. Why? Go and read "Who Move My Cheese", you will know why. [Hor, Caroline arr, don't want share here meh?!] The story is about the rats and human beings that been trapped in a maze and finding cheese. Hehe! Sort of things like that la. People are always thinking too much, the end, get nothing. We should learn to think simple, but not asking you simply do ya.

Wednesday afternoon - no class. In UTM, Wednesday afternoon is co-curriculum section, and we are so "old enough" to take it [no la, finished the credits already]. Actually I am kind of this semester, 15 credit hours only. Anyway, I believe this month is a hectic month. Why saying so? Cause Thesis's report's due date is coming preety preety soon and I am still waiting for my questionnaire to be sending back here. I am doing my research in Penang, KL and Jb. If you ask me regret or not for doing so many places, I will say no, is a challenge! [try to think things from a more positive way is a key element I am still alive here]

Today, I am going to do an experiment. Hmm, what kind of experiment?? I am going to use my sandwich maker to cook omelet, hahaha! You guess, will it work? ... SURE, it works! But my omelet is in square shape, hehe! As a conclusion, the experiment is success!

to be continued ..

1-Week Slim Down Project (3)

Oh, is Tuesday! I am having Etika Profesional's test today. Therefore I woke up quite early, around 6.30am. I need to have breakfast! If not, I surely will fall asleep before I completed answering my test paper, hehe ;p

Again, I am having tuna sandwiches again (with egg and chili sauce) plus one cup of nescafe for my breakfast. [Tips: Having breakfast is a must if you want to lose more kgs] Thought of wake up earlier to study, who know ended up enjoying my breakfast, hehehe!

The test is not that difficult. If you did your preparation, you surely can answer it well. [not really doing my full-preparation le] Hohoho! Lunch time! Not yet. Since yesterday I missed out my work out, hmm ... and today is TUESDAY!! GYM-day!! I went for an hour work out (40 minutes of cardio and another 20 minutes for stretching] Feeling very fresh after gym, hanging around at kolej's computer lab after that.

Hungry hungry ... Know what I had for my lunch? [cabbage+tomato+carrot+egg+tuna] Salad! I love the carrot stick, hehe :) Forgotten to tell you all, I am rabbit-Caroline so I love carrot. I prepared 2 portions so I can have it before my 5pm class.

Haiz, Business Strategy's test result is out! Hmm, sad sad sad, not very happy with the result. Most of us who choose essay question 1 not doing well so ... not really have appetite to eat my apple. I drank milk [I am eating ... no fasting ... hehe]

5 more days to go!! Jia you Jia you!!!

1-Week Slim Down Project (2)

On Monday (03 March 2008), as planned night before, wake up by 7am for a jog. Guess what happened? Caroline overslept, she read story book till 2am so can't wake up on time. Aisk! [see Caroline is giving her reason again]

I woke up quite late today, around 12 noon >.<" I had my oat+raisin as my kick-start BRUNCH. After my brunch, I am heading to library doing some online information searching. I ate some almonds during in library. After checking and replying my emails, saving now the information I got regarding Ingredient Branding, borrowing books that I am interest on ... te te te te .. time past very fast, I headed back hostel by 5pm [the books and laptop added up together are very heavy o T_T].

Bought 1 karipap from mini-mart as I really very hungry right that moment. What's my dinner? Hmm I had tuna sandwiches (with egg and chili sauce) and nescafe. Yum yum!

Hehe, I told you already what I am eating. Hehe :) eating a lot. To share with you all, if you want to lose weight by controlling your diet, you can eat more meals but in small portion and it really works!

1-Week Slim Down Project

Almost 2-weeks past I came back from my 3-weeks Chinese New Year Holiday. Not that long actually just I applied additional 2-weeks holiday from my faculty (week before and week after my mid-sem break). I am not lazy, just because I need to attend one camp before my mid-sem break and Hokkien people's CNY on the eighth of CNY. [seem like Caroline is preety good in giving reason hor?! keke]

Okay okay, come back to the point. I am sure everyone is getting "cutier" after Chinese New Year celebration, I mean fatter here. A lot of delicious cuisine been served by our grandma, mommy and aunties, so as I in my family.

And Caroline was gaining extra 4kg (52kg). Why? Actually the whole last 1-month sem break, January and February, my main task was eat eat eat. You know la, December so many celebration and parties, then January got teambuilding and camp, February le - CNY ... so I really ate a lot in these 3 months. My mom is started to complain on my weight. And I can't continue like that anymore, if not, I am getting "cutier" and "cutier" not prettier and slimmer which I prefer you praise me, keke!

So, I started my 1-Week Slim Down Project since 03 March 2008 (Monday).

My target is to lose 4kg in one week time. Hmm, I am sure you all guys out there sure think is a "NO-NO" to lose 4kg in just 1 week. You may think I fasting, I stop eating ... is not healthy at all. No worries. My plan is more tend to DETOX PROGRAM. After I have lose the extra kilogram, I will shift to muscle-toning plan.

I went shopping last Saturday. I had bought foods, vegetables and fruits that I am going to use for this 1-Week Slim Down Project. For e.g. cabbage, carrots, potatoes, tomatoes, apples, eggs, raisins, tuna ... spent me nearly one hundred, I also bought other necessary things la.

On Sunday (before I started my "project"), I cooked cabbage+carrot+tomato SOUP to "inform my body that I am going to start my 1 week diet". But too bad, cause I finished 3 packs of junk food in that day as well [HAIZZZZ ...] Mommy called that night, asking about my weight, kena liao lo, kena screwed by her. Caroline, Caroline, you gonna be serious this time, is not kidding!!! That night, I had draw out my plan and sticked it on my bulletin board! [to show that I am really serious on it! Great, go ahead Caroline!!]

to be continued ...

The Begining of New Page

March 05, 2008, Wednesday [1.09 pm]

Princess's Diary is my brand new and just started blog space.

I do have a few accounts, Myspace, Friendster, Blogger and Tagged. It is not a good example. And I think is time to shift and stay loyal, be one to just one, and here I am ;)

Princess's Diary is Caroline's newly opened "channel" to share her thoughts, feeling, stories ... P/S: She loves mumbling so hope you guys don't mind it ya.

Enjoy yourself here though I know I am not a good blogger. It's still my dream to become a FULL-time blogger! Can you imagine what's the life I am having to becoming a so called full time blogger?!! I will be exceedingly rich and able to spend most of my time blogging, surfing the net, traveling, doing whatever I love to without worrying where and how to earn money to feed myself.

I have a big dream!! Guys, dare to dream big like me yo~

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