Going to miss all these ...

20th March 2008, Thursday, another 30 minutes left ...

I finished my chapter 5 already!! Yahoooo!!!!

I am counting on the days left ... hmm ... going to graduate sooooon la. Not yet die. Last time, when you ask me, I will definitely give you an expression of "WOW, THAT'S GREAT! I'M LEAVING!" but not now. I know I am going to miss my university life just like how I miss my secondary life years before. I am getting bigger and mature, apart be a big deal anymore. Caroline, Caroline, treasure all your university's memories *wink wink*

I can still remember what I did during my 1st semester. Hmm, I skipped the Orientation Week, stayed in the hostel, slept all I can ... went down for meals when time came ... all those kakak and abang been cheated by me, keke! They sent me to PK (Pusat Kesihatan), made me take the cough medicine and finally sleeping soundly in DSI (UTM's hall) HAHAHAHA!!! Everyone knew that I cabut balik KL during the 1st weekend in UTM. I am well-known as "Skipping Queen". I placed my bag outside the class, "cabut balik tidur" after signed the attendance. I watched series whole night, having big big panda eyes ... ...

A lot of people said Caroline very lan xi ... ego ... ... whatever, let it be ... I am kinda happy-go-lucky! I have problems with coursemates as we all are different thinking, having a very hard time in the beginning of my uni life. Anyway, I went through all these dy ... It makes me grow stronger and mature. I did do mistakes, I admit and learn.

When I was in work, I will be kinda serious person, I am firm and will debate for my ideas and points. Sometimes I hurt people around me with words without realizing ... I am bad!! (as I told everybody since the beginning) When I have problems, I keep telling myself, cheers up darling, go through all these, you going to be stronger!! This is how I going through these 3 years. HAHAHA! Said until I am so chammm. Keke!!

Okay! Let me end this post by sharing some : : : Funny funny pictures : : : I took during my class recently.

this picture was took during multimedia marketing lab. San san is using photoshop to sketch out herself actually, but too shy to admit so put my name there *isk*

this le .. took during ethic class. En Azlan (not sure I spelled it correct or not) was talking his grandmother stories, nothing to do so ... nice drawing??! simply draw it only o ;P

Moody ..

Am I feeling moody today?! Hmmm .. The title was wrote yesterday before Brand Management class, thought of posting one yesterday, who know ... "Caroline, you feeling moody today?? Oh, princess diary ..." my Brand Management lecture, Sharifuddin was stepping in the class and asking me. Hehe, I was using the classroom's PC, then what was over the computer screen was projected out so ... ...

I WAS feeling moody days before, maybe aunty visit soon ... tension with PSM ... working phobia, perhaps. My last paper will be on 23rd April, planning to start working on month of May, meaning that I have about one month plus to go. I am not yet prepared, don't feel like working >.<

Symposium is coming soon. Some of my coursemates had already finish their 5 chapters, how's about my progress anyway??? Not bad I think, finished my chapter 4 yesterday "officially", chapter 5 and the summary will be finished by Friday, as planned. Not bad right?! Hehe! Stop, Caroline! I still need Sharifuddin to revise and revise and revise, and usually it takes timesssss and most probably I will get all done exactly day before the due date, hahaha! What to do. I am aiming for the Best Presentor for this coming symposium (final year project's presentation). Hopefully I manage to get it :) Ganbarimasu!!

My mom called me yesterday night. She asked me whether I got job offer already or not. Cousin brother asked about it few hours before on msn ... Guess what answer I gave my mom. "I still want to study." Frankly saying, I know what I want but scare of not getting what I want so I start to runaway from the problem. Working phobia, I guess this is the best verse to describe my feeling now. I still want to study, actually is I don't feel like working. Kinda scare of the uncertainty, really don't know what's my future will be, very scare of making the wrong decision ... A lot of people are start sending their resume for job application. Me? I had finalize my resume and cover letter but still not yet sending out. I am not ready. Working, is not what I want to do.

I woke up this morning with "heart jumping" [feeling anxious ..] as I know I am one day nearer to the uncertainty. I threw tantrum to friends around me lately, don't feel like talking to anybody, feeling disgusting with everything that did by people around me ... ... guess these are what people around me thinking la. Haiz, been working together with you guys almost three years but the way you all doing things still not change, told you guys again and again but the mistake is repeated again and again, that's why I am running mad with. I guess I do have fault as I don't like to explain again and again. Whatever~ Let it be~ Is three years the longest period for a relationship to stand, perhaps, who know. People are coming and leaving. Two people are like line, when these two lines meet, well, they get well together. But don't forget after the line cross, it will separate in two different directions.

Graduate vacation? How was the progress?? Hehehe! [Dry laugh >.<] It was officially canceled this afternoon. Sad? Not actually, as I didn't expect a lot on it. When you get rejected again and again, you will learn not to put so much of expectation and you won't feel hurt once you can't get what you want. Frustration? Yup, sure, a bit. I did all the research, change the destination due to the budget problem .. who know at the end, this is what I get.

Sometimes I do think that we need to learn to be selfish "a bit", to stress of it again, is a bit. I know it is hard for me but I need to learn just to protect myself of getting hurt, hehe! Jot it down! Survival tip! HAHAHA! Not to say selfish, is paying more attention on yourself, love yourself more. If not, people will keep taking advantage on you, and the result is, you will getting hurt again and again. I believe our heart is fragile, it can't take all these, so take good care of your heart! HAHAHA! [Bullshit!] Anyway, is true, cardio problem very severe so everyone have to be extremely careful. [What The ...]

Aiya, stop stop stop, stop thinking and writing all these [hmm, is my blog, I can write whatever I want, you syiok or I syiok? haha! "chuen o!"]


Guess where I went this afternoon?????? [no present anyway if you are doing a right guess, bluek =p]






scroll down to find the answer ...






Condom Factory

Hehe! AIESEC is running its AIDS/HIV campaign, condom factory visitation is one of the activity for this campaign. It was a different exposure for me. Quite fun. If anyone from UTM want to find out more about this, can join for the last trip on next Wednesday. Just leave me a msg or go to FAB bus stop on Wednesday by 1.30pm. You will see a lot of AIESEC-kers there! :)

If ...

This afternoon, during Business Strategy class, this suddenly came to my mind: "what if I blind ..." These few nights, although I was very tired but no matter how hard I tried to sleep also can't, I just rolled over and over my bed ... Then I feel pain on my eyes, may be my eyes are too tired and not having enough of rest. I told blue-ie and goffy that I feel like there is fire on my eyes, hahaha! Why? I always sending the wave to guys until my eyes are too hot .. WTH Caroline is bluffing here, keke!

What if I blind ... Then I can't finish my assignments and THESIS then cannot graduate. So now is not the right time for me to get blind. And it is so scary if you are blind. Your worth world is dark and you are not sure about what and who is surround you, I am going to be panic as I don't like uncertainty.

For those who are blind but still manage to have a great achievement in their life, we can imagine how strong and determine they are. Actually we should take those disability as our role model. They are not scare but face it. Sometimes when we are facing difficulties, we will just run away from the problem, complain this and that but never think what is the reason that make us fall. Addition, we should more appreciate what we are having.

Maybe May is coming soon, need to get a job, settle down ... a lot of worries ... whether which industry I should pursuit, which company should I pick, what's my career path, what can I do to continually upgrade myself ... Oh gosh, thesis le!! Haizzz ... It is life, it is the crossroad again that everyone will face in their life time. Perhaps what can I do know is do my best part, analyze every alternative to pick the best one. And I am sure Caroline can make it!!!

Update

1-week past and what's the result for my 1-week slimming project???!! Hehehe, very sad to say that it is not a fully success, anyway, I am great with the result. I managed to maintain at 50 kg although I had a lot of "unnecessary input" this week.

Cheers up, Caroline! And I am going to my next round! Yo yo! Don't know why I am preety enjoy keeping fit, is a nice task. Hehe, sot sot jo :D This time, I am sure I can! Why am I so confident about it? As this week on, everyone is in critical period till the last day of final exam. Agree?? Everyone is rushing for the assignments, projects, lab works, reports, AND thesis!!! The schedule is so packed until you won't realize the time pass. Until the end of day, you will suddenly realize that you have already shed down some weights.

I had bought some dry ingredient to cook tong sui, banana and EGGS. Hehe! I love to eat egg and I finished 10 eggs in 1 week time, which I think is normal but my friends not agree. [Tips: It is good to consume more proteins during your diet. Why? When you are eating protein, actually you are burning the fat while eating and it will help you to tone up your muscle :) so guys, eat more eggs but not more than 3 per day]


to be continued ...

Funny Joke :D

I think this is superb funny so I share it with you guys.

This inccident was happened days ago between blue-ie and goffy:

Bluefish : wana eat McD later?

Goffy: U wan call delivery?
Bluefish: ya, u wan?yesterday u wan eat ma..
Goffy: Hmm...today don't eat McD...
Bluefish: WHY? today McD not fresh?

See what goffy did. Goffy, is don't want eat NOT don't eat. She is always in blurry mood :)