friendship

i have no idea why am i keep having nightmares these days. maybe i should just get a dream catcher.

again, last night. the funny thing is that what i dreamt of was the fear i have for myself relating to gossip girl series i'm addicted too.

friendship. i start to realise that once you get older, your so-called best friends are getting lesser and lesser. and you start to appreciate more on the close relationship you have with family. the first time having this kind of feeling was when i entered UTM. i was the only one in my "gang" that in JB, others are in KL. i felt depressed ...

anyway, it wasn't that bad. after 3 years course, everyone apart with their own dreams. meeting another batch of people and changing another new job, you met another batch of new people ... (that's why i have so many friends in my Facebook friend list).

ask yourself, the closest friend you can rely on when you are having problem ... i bet one hand five fingers are far more than enough.

betrayal? yes, i guess it happened to all of us. i'm considered soft-hearten type, i forgive though i'm madly mad when i found out.

i used to have this good friend that i share every single secrets. it was a big shocked when i found she actually betrayed me. i wasn't sure how to deal with it for this time round ... i thought i forgave but i realise i was not.

time heals? maybe, perhaps.

i was watching gossip girl season 3 last night, i bet you guys know what is it all about in gossip girl, backstab ... betray ... and i had a stupid dream bout this friend who betrayed me. AND the worse thing is i always make my dream connecting with my life ... argh! feeling insecure for no reason ... funny me, i would say!

hopefully i can be a lot more better after "shooting" all my emoOooOoos here. ciao, people!~